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I walk a lonely, twisted path, Surrounded by my own thoughts. The dark, evil musings they are. They take over sometimes, Scares the people who love me. I didn't realize I was hurting them, I only wanted to hurt myself. End all of my suffering, Not be the cause of theirs. I don't want to feel the pain anymore. I don't want to feel the heart break. I don't want to feel the emptiness. I don't want to feel the darkness. It calls my name so sweetly. Listening to its promises of nothing. No pain, heart break, emptiness, darkness. It sounds so peaceful,so quiet. I think I'll see you there soon.

'He greeted death like an old friend'. Is a saying I've heard a lot in life. I've known so much heart wrenching pain, I've been asked so much how I'm still here. I don't show them my scar on my arm. I tell them my family and friends never gave up. Even if I felt like no one was in my corner. They were always there silently cheering me on. It's not easy to see, harder to tell yourself, When you are so stuck in your head. Looking back at everything, I would never change it. You may not understand that but someday you will.

When I think of your smile, And the way you look at me. I get butterflies in my tummy, That makes my face light up the night. Takes me back to 2012. When I first saw you there. I lost my heart back then To the girl with the Bleach bag. Flash forward a few years to 2015, We decided to give it a shoot. It didn't last long due to our insecurities. Even still I kept remembering when, I met you at Valley Fair in 2012. I was too shy to say hi. The day was almost over When you got in front of me in line. Flash forward again to 2017, We had our amazing week. So many smiles and kisses shared. My heart and soul were soaring. Thinking of that day

New years eve 2017. I went out side for a smoke. It's a full moon. It's so bright outside.   I looked up at the moon And the stars around it. Orin was right. There. I remember when I was shown Orin. Over time I showed people. I wonder if they showed people. Orin has dimmed over years. He's given me so much joy. And yet I wondered, How many don't know him. Don't realize what they are seeing. Then everything stopped. The wind The sound The cold Time Me A single thought in a second. That's everyone. That's you. That's me. That's the guy sitting next you. That's the guy asking spare change. Once bright but dull over time. How many stars fade ou

I know you will never see this. We haven't talked since 7th grade. I remember you well though. Your locker was one away from mine. You sat near me in English, Infront of me in German, And next to me in the lecture hall. Our last names put us close together. I will never forget your mezmorizing hazel eyes. You were kind to me but your friends weren't. I had just come out as lesbian in 6th grade. Everyone knew and ostracized me. Because of your friends I didn't get to say much. I wish I could have had the courage to tell you out right. I fell fast and hard for you that year. Just ask my best friend or my dad. I talked their ears off talking abo

I have liked you Since day one. One talk Is all it took. Then for you I started to look. Even then I have Wanted to be near you. I alsotuley love Your smile and eyes. The way I catch You looking at me. When I look at you I am so happy. When you smile I smile with you. I long for you To be with me. I want you to want To be with me.

You said you didn't want to see me with anyone else. I said the exact same thing to you. I thought that meant we were working towards something. That one day I'd call you my girlfriend I didn't realize that I was just a friend with benefits to you. You held my hand, told me you loved me. You even kissed my forehead while I was sleeping. I don't know how else to take that. I thought we both wanted more. I'm sorry if my poems scared you off. It is my thoughts, my dreams, my wishes and desires. Most of them aren't even reality. I miss what we had though, If I tell you that you just tell me there was no we. That it was only ever me. Stuck in my h

Looking over the times we hung out, Confused you can tell me it meant nothing. Exchanging I love you's, hold hands, You kissed my forehead while I asleep. I wasn't the only one doing these things first. How can you tell me it was in my head? No, I never told people we were together. Looking in from the outside though... People saw two people smiling, Happy being around each other. Kissing each other, smiling and gazing at one another. Doing things that couples do. Of course people thought we were together. How can you say we weren't working towards it? I know what you are going through, I have been there and you were there for it. Yes, I have

Sitting in the warmth of the sun. I feel nothing but lingering chill. Fear of the unknown haunts me, But a want to follow the path saves me. I am scared that this wont work However I feel driven to see if it does. Uncertain of what this love holds for me. I have an odd sense this is my last. I know I am young still With a full life ahead of me. Others have come before her, But honestly, I can not see any after. My soul is at peace with her by my side, Something I have never know. I can not explain it well but She will forever be my Always.

In my heart of hearts I want you. In my dreams it comes true. Day to day is nothing special, When I dream nothing is final. I fight with myself everyday, About what I really want to say. Telling you truth is something I can't do Because you won't hear what I find true.